Rain coming

Been waiting for rain for days. Finally going to get it tonight.

Looking forward to Survivor

Television has been a disappointment to me this summer.  I have multiple episodes of a couple of shows on the DVR that I just can't seem to get around to watching.   I am busy but if I was really into them I would find the time.  I have managed to keep up with Longmire,  a cable show on at 10pm in our time zone. I like this show almost as much for the scenery as for the story. Makes me want to move to Wyoming,  except I think it's filmed in New Mexico. Anyway it's over for the season with a nicely satisfying cliffhanger episode.

There is always Rookie Blue to depend on.  Been cop show replacement for Grey's Anatomy. Likeable characters, decent storyline. A lot like Grey's Anatomy actually except police instead of doctors. I have been keeping up with that show. Managed to make time to see all of Hero, even though I knew I wasn't going to be happy with the outcome of this kind of sappy reality competition show. Who Dun It was a little confusing.  The guy who won thought the killer was someone else until the very end but he still won. I was confused but I'm glad he won instead the chick with the curly hair. Last year or the year before there was a show called Expedition Impossible which I really really liked,  but it went away and never came back.

Perception, crossing lines etc.

I have noticed recently that many of the tv shows I watch regularly feature protagonists with some kind of flaw.  Daniel Pierce has schizophrenia.   Adrian Monk was obsessive compulsive.  Gregory House had that leg as well as the drug addiction.  The American cop on Crossing Lines has the injured hand plus drug  dependency. Walter White has cancer when he is his best self goes into remission as he "breaks bad"  and in the first episode of the last episodes we find his cancer has come back.  I am kind of hoping this means WW has a chance at redemption, kind of hoping but not really sure about that.

Is this some kind of  intentional imitation of successful television shows?  Or a universal theme? Or maybe it is not as prevalent as I believe it is, but just the kind of show that I am attracted to.  Or maybe all of the above.

feeling very old now

So now husband's blood count is down again.  After all the scopes and tests and him swallowing a camera to take pictures as it moves thru the entire digestive system; now we leave the digestive system and move on.  Another doctor, more tests more questions.  Maybe some actual answers?

So tired of repeating the same thing over and over. There needs to be one person who has all of the pieces of the puzzle. There needs to be one person in charge of everything.  I am afraid that that is me, and I don't know if I  can do a very good job of it. Maybe we need to talk to the people at Humana.  Maybe there is some way they can help.

We just need to take the time time to figure it out. Can I muster up some optimism?  Is optimism the best thing? I hope so.

old and tired

Feeling old and tired and a little depressed I guess.  Seems like we are stuck in some enormous rut, and though we actually created the rut ourselves, I'm not sure we can get out without help.  Problem is....who do you trust these days?  God you could trust.  But he is not speaking to me in ways I can understand.

I feel like  my age makes my opinions less valuable, my time worth less and my needs too costly.  As a result I don't trust the medical professionals we have been dealing with or practically anyone I'm dealing with these days.